Why Sometimes I Hate Myself

Re:Why Sometimes I Hate Myself by mamoriamohit on Tuesday September 16, 2014 @05:11AM (#8323632)

I can relate to this hatred very well. There was a time when everything was new to us and learning was fun. But then, the technology improved rapidly and we got a lot to learn and create. If I look back, I find myself lucky to have begun programming at the time when I began (11 years ago). There's just so many things that one needs to learn to call himself a programmer.

And now, when I know enough to build software of any scale, I hate myself too, for not being as productive as I was as a beginner. As a beginner, I would learning continuously for weeks (with food and sleep breaks in between).

And as self-learners, we always have tendency to be better than what we were yesterday and thus the anxiety begins to build up.

I feel you, brother.

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Re:Why Sometimes I Hate Myself by mamoriamohit on Tuesday September 16, 2014 @05:12AM (#8323634)

Although, I have recently found that mini side projects help keep the productivity at a healthy rate.

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Re:Why Sometimes I Hate Myself by innguest on Tuesday September 16, 2014 @09:30AM (#8324357)

This resonates a lot with me, and I hadn't seen it from this perspective before.

I do get anxiety from feeling I'm not learning or producing enough in my spare time but your message helps me see that maybe I'm yearning for the kinds of days I had more than a decade ago when programming looked like a mystical island to be explored in an adventure. Now that I know the island in and out and know my tools pretty well, suddenly I don't feel like improving the island and I'm more interested in other aspects of life.

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