Thanks for replying guys. I have been struggling with my self-created loneliness lately.

It is so weird that people dont want to hang out with a using drug addict. Haha.

Anyhow, I like to program in Lisp, perl and python. I work at a startup and no one knows I use and I never nod at work. I have been promoted twice since I have been there so I still have it together at work and it is going well.

Thanks for the responses. It makes me feel less isolated aand alone which feels really good right now :)