Re:The Day I Started Lying to Ruth
by zrail on Wednesday May 07, 2014 @08:03AM
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I was declared in remission from cancer in April 2013.
My stepdad died of cancer in April 2013.
My mother-in-law died of cancer in August 2013 (we had gotten married exactly one week prior so she could be there)
It's not the same experience, nothing can be. But I felt what you describe. Empty. Numb, but distraught at the same time. Happy that they were at peace and horrible that I felt that way.
New things fill up some of the void, but there are still days where I want to curl up in a ball and just stop for awhile.
You've been emotionally wounded. You'll heal. There will be scar tissue, and it will take a long time, but eventually there will be days where all you think about is the good memories and not the bad.
My stepdad died of cancer in April 2013.
My mother-in-law died of cancer in August 2013 (we had gotten married exactly one week prior so she could be there)
It's not the same experience, nothing can be. But I felt what you describe. Empty. Numb, but distraught at the same time. Happy that they were at peace and horrible that I felt that way.
New things fill up some of the void, but there are still days where I want to curl up in a ball and just stop for awhile.
You've been emotionally wounded. You'll heal. There will be scar tissue, and it will take a long time, but eventually there will be days where all you think about is the good memories and not the bad.