Re:ASK PG: What were your first thoughts knowing for sure Vi...
by randallsquared on Saturday March 21, 2009 @08:05AM
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I agree that it's not just the money; it's just that the money was what was on my mind all the time, because I was losing/borrowing money rather regularly for 2/3 of that seven years. :) I also plan to try it again, fairly soon, even. It's one reason why I'm working contracts now instead of full-time.
I think it comes from the sudden lack of responsibility. When you're in a startup, everything you do matters: if you succeed, it's because you rocked, and if you fail, it's because you screwed up. This makes you feel incredibly alive, but it's also incredibly stressful. When you go back to collecting a paycheck and have to grotesquely screw up to get fired, all that stress just evaporates, and it's like coming down off a massive high.
I still wanna try it again, and hopefully end up with a success instead of a failure next time. But I felt like I'd reached the end of my endurance when I gave up: I'd given it my 110% and it still wasn't enough given my current experience level. I wouldn't trade the experience for anything though.