What? That isn’t at all what happens and that fundamental misunderstanding is probably why you have trouble. You cannot, ever, “see” something happen before it happens. An observer “sees” it delayed, just like when you see lightning but hear thunder on a delay. The thunder didn’t happen later when you heard it, and you cannot hear the thunder before lightning. You could, however, fly faster than the thunder and hear it twice, just like if you could fly faster than the light, you could see the lightning twice. In neither case can you see the lightning before happens, or hear the thunder before the lightning.