I keep all my networking to my self. I own colocated servers where I route all my apartments ISP traffic though. I don't use ISP routers. Everything is ad-hoc. I get it. As a rookie network engineer due to the nature of the internet connectivity they don't always follow the same network hops. But the paths I've seen the data flow through have been strange, it's been spooky.
An example is Overwatch the game I loved, and where I have been ahead of the game and then suddenly I get disconnected. My server route path out of no loses network path or where on many occasions will take a random laggy network path and switch back when I disconnect from the game. People do get DDoS in game so this isn't uncommon but it's weirder than that. I trust my DC, and I pay for premium and their own reports show nothing on their end, so this had to happen at the TCP stack.
Discord was my main communication play-forum until I fell out with some users and deleted my account finally. Again traces where my network has suddenly been siphoned. Users have been hearing me in crystal quality and then suddenly drop to echo where my monitoring show no difference in bandwidth exhaustion especially when I bring up controversial topics including my CPU/GPU spike.
My recent "paranoid freak" is that don't use LSP Servers.
For my coding I did use Kate. With LSP Servers turned off, I have had console messages trigger within Kate terminal console of it trying to connect to Javascript, JSON, HTML and a ClangD servers. I have started dabbling in C like I always have wanted too. It's as if I am triggering a code pattern.
This started occurring when I discovered how to display a grid on screen in Tk and TCL. Why now, I don't know. Never had this issue before.
LSP servers and including Git trying to commit to a sub module, where I don't even use git, I use fossil. Linus, I don't trust. I dislike him personally and have spoken out about this.
Maybe a setting, bug or something else but I can't locate it. I compile the kernel from source and applications from ports.
It's these odd oddities that are near unexplainable without another user with knowledge present. Why wouldn't technology be tapped? Linus sold himself out with WSL and such are such controversial subjects. I believe Linux is unsafe but this post isn't to debate that, each to their own.
The big one that speaks loud to me, I used to play an old FPS game called Dirty Bomb.
Apart from a few friends outside of the IT field it's safe to say I have zero contacts on steam, I don't own facebook, discord et cetera but joining upon a near empty server and coincidentally there were four users.
One as my real life name, fine. Google me and you'll find my home address as that's my registered business. There was a player with my younger brothers name, who isn't exactly some famous online person, keeps to himself and a few more oddities based on past history. As if they were trying to fear me by doxing myself. Apart from my business and company registered in my deedpoll'd name you won't find any references to my real name.
I do fully believe backdoors exist and they exist within Linux and FreeBSD. China has known to back door chips Supermicro, Cisco can tell you the story of that. And this has all started since I started to rebel against the main stream crowd about four years ago.
I don't use frameworks and in a way a digital anarchist. I have used TOR so if I was on some LEO list, I do believe am. I am unorthodox.
37, plus my older history, it's just more sheer coincidentally than "David, you're being paranoid again".
So in the long run I just accept the sabotage and keep quiet about it and work on effing them legally until I do.
If you know me you'll know I hate this world. How it's rejected me and how history is constantly repeating it self foolishly. I'm not scared anymore. I hate being at a computer so you'll normally find me outside of my apartment. Coming home from work makes me psychologically sick looking at other computer screens.
I don't but have on occasional occasions smoked cannabis but not while coding. I have struggled through life with bullying but since fighting back I have encountered many strange encounters, real life and online.
I did use to mess around as script kiddie when I was 13 with botnets. RxBot, PhatBot to name a few but I keep clean now because my moral compass says so.
Everyone knows IT is boring af to anyone outside of the field. It's the most boring field alive and I hate it. Sadly I have no other knack and I've tried many. If I could break free from this suffocating field I would. But adult responsibilities. Sigh. All I wanted to be was a vet at 16, not some system architect.
Maybe it is, maybe it's not. I know I am paranoid but sane enough to know it.