> First of all, I'm impressed, you're a real fighter
He may not have much control over it, but OP is 100% an abusive emotional terrorist. BPD "sufferers" are evil and the fact they can't control it doesn't make them any less so. Gassing up these people is not helpful, it is actively harmful.
You can't love the feral dog into not biting you.
A high-functioning BPD sufferer can learn to be aware of behaviors that negatively impact others and minimize them. OP is likely an individual like that.
Don't take hope from the hopeless.
Dehumanizing someone who is seeing a therapist and seeking help online trying to seek help is both legitimately unhelpful, and also actively harms people in recovery by casting doubt on whether getting help will help them get better.
Abusers with BPD exist, abusers without BPD exist. Abusers are abusers, being diagnosed with BPD doesn't make you an abuser. People with BPD are, almost definitionally, people who've been abused or clinically neglected, and are likely to be abused in adulthood as well.
https://www.manchester.ac.uk/about/news/borderline-personali...
Finally, BPD is a set of symptoms, not a cause - for this reason, its a pretty contested diagnosis with a lot of stigma attached. Its often more accurate to think of it as a trauma disorder. 50% of people with BPD don't meet the clinical criteria (aka they don't have BPD) after 10 years in many studies - if it were truly an unchangeable thing, those numbers would not be possible.
> feral dog
Whose behavior seems out of control on this page?
BPD is VERY manageable. Most of the time it's environmental and once you work through the childhood trauma it can almost disappear completely.
The op's post is dead, so I just wanted to chime in under yours to tell people it's not bad, and for me it's not that bad because I've got the harder to diagnose "silent" or high functioning brand.
Which is good and bad, I guess. Easier to treat, bad because it took me 44 years to figure out I had it.
Usually, when I want to get through trauma, I stay occupied with activities that I love and give myself time (sometimes several years). I'm introverted, so I recharge my batteries by doing activities like running, learning a new language or skill, cooking, or cleaning. Once my batteries are recharged, I'm able to accept that I'm human and it's normal to experience these emotions.
My next step is similar to what you did in this message. If the trauma is too big, I share my thoughts and reflections with people I trust. When they share their thoughts, I only take what I think fits my situation.
For me, it takes time and effort to work through trauma. I stay patient, trust the process, and keep fighting. I love fighting .