My experience was the same; they were like a bandage we put on to allow us to heal without infection, for me SSRIs were a mental bandage so I could heal enough to get to a psychologist. I came off them, and was fine. My situation is confounded by my buprenorphine script though, as it's known to be a reasonbly effective anti-depressant in it's own right, albeit via a completely different mechanism (it's an opioid-receptor agonist, partial agonist and antagonist. Weird drug)