I left a job where I tried my hardest to make it work.

The last few jobs in a row I entered with a specific, singular objective: “I vow I am not going to get into conflicts with people again.”

I try my hardest, and it doesn’t work.

A big problem is I hyper produce and hyper focus. I am juggling 18 balls and the “get along with people” ball eventually drops and when it does, it’s game over.

I have extreme capabilities for work but it also exhausts and overwhelms me.

I get extremely exhausted from thinking all the time, I am highly obsessive and always running my engine chewing over things mentally.

So I never rest.

And what inevitably happens is that I make social mistakes, and when I do - That’s the start of the end.