First of all, I think you have a good material for writing a novel, or at least a tale about something I'd like to read, I mean, it sounds like a melting pot of characters what you have there.

Regarding your position, you need to assume what it is and try to stay positive about finding what you want to get, based on what you said, other people work on projects that don't require a permanent effort, and are not going to finish well, the kind of initiatives I think you're not interested in. If that feeling of being out of context continues it's better you leave or low your expectations. I assisted a couple of times to one of those places and never felt the motivation to being part of that. I think it's most effective when you go with a group of people already created