I feel completely out of control and it feels like no matter how hard I try, no matter how diligently I plan things out, everything everywhere get worse all at the same time. If my tools were working N out out of M today, they will work N-1 out of M tomorrow and it's impossible for anything to get better.

It feels like any electronics I interact with are maddening nowadays. Yesterday, me and my partner needed to set up a timer for 1 hour, I set up it through our dumb kitchen timer, and my partner was wondering why I didn't use my phone timer. Look you don't understand EVEN LOOKING AT MY PHONE is a fucking nightmare at this point because there are going to be N notifications that need my attention.