Thanks for your detailed response and to read your perspective.

I can see why you would go for this and experience it, especially if you practiced for 20 years. It seems you thought about it well.

On b) I would entertain the idea that the mindstuff is always an illusion and what the mind is, is a pointer to Conciousness (Cit)

I studied for over 10 years now, but I did have superlative experiences that helped me inform my life choices and outlook in a positive way once you get beyond dogma and so on.