Yes I did have two treatments. After the first treatment I really liked it and I thought I had my life back. All my debilitating symptoms were gone. Weeks after the second treatment I noticed that my depression and trauma is not gone. It just made me not constantly aware of it, if that makes sense. I was not clinically dissociated as well, just dissociated from the things that caused my suffering. I didn’t think that was a healthy way of living, so I stopped getting treatments. Luckily I found forms of treatments to actually heal after that. I’m incredibly glad I did.

Ketamine didn’t heal me, my perspective just changed, which can be valuable though.

> Ketamine didn’t heal me, my perspective just changed

I thought that was the entire point of the treatment. Is that not the case?

I don’t know it might be. I went in with the mindset of wanting it to help me end my suffering, not change my perspective. I think that’s the case for most people.

Your perspective is the suffering though, unless I am missing something? The whole thing with trauma response and all the various things that come from that is that different things have different effects on different people, because their perspectives are different. The treatments that work (CBT, EMDR, etc) also rely on changing your perspective of the event or your response to it.

> I did have two treatments

> Weeks after the second treatment ... I stopped getting treatments

This sounds like an unusual, very sparse schedule. Most ketamine treatment routines have many more than two doses, and nothing resembling multi-week intervals between doses at the start.

My wife has undergone ketamine treatment, and as part of it, I read up on the literature. Typical ramp-up schedules (like hers was) would be one or twice per week for one or two months, and then less frequently until you stop or go into "as-needed" maintenance dosing.

I'm glad you found other things that worked for you, but what you describe doesn't sound like a normal course of ketamine treatment.