Don't try to blame others, see what works for you and where you can improve. Some people can make other run for them and send donations without even trying. It's not about them or cruel word. Your problems are about you, and you need to either solve them or to switch to something that works for you, or you will be suffering the rest of life.

I find that hard to believe. I tried a lot of things. I switched between many companies, changed industries, moved to many different countries around the world to find opportunities, I tried playing the patient nice guy for years, I also played more assertive in later years, changed my entire personality to act like an extrovert, started blogs, pursued investors (attending events), started open source projects (one which became popular in its industry), got involved in blockchain space built my own unique projects from scratch... Nothing delivered financial results. I feel like I tried essentially everything so I know it's not something I can control.

When I study people who succeeded, the main difference I can see is that they got very lucky because they knew people who helped them get attention.

Most successful people seem to have this rosy perception of how things work; unfortunately, I cannot go back to that point. Once you've seen nasty stuff, you cannot un-see.