Exactly this! I noticed I have a habit of doing this for everything I "choose" in my life. If I choose to buy X, I go online looking for opinions to validate my decision; if I choose to take Y sport, I do the same; if I feel inclined to belive in Z theory or follow W philosophy, I do the same.
I know what I want and believe, but I still find it hard to just trust myself and dive into it, rather I have to always justify it to myself by means of external opinions.
This may not be the best place to ask, but do you have any idea on how to deal with this "lack of confidence in my own choices"?
I guess my only hesitation is that I’ve tried having this sort of resolve before, and then something changed (no idea what - the weather, my workload, my mood, my kids sleep patterns, or something) and I slipped back into this pattern of migrating my email around to different services. So I guess I’m shopping for evidence or reasoning to help me both decide to not care, and to remember not to care when things change again.
If I am right, I suggest just moving on with your life. That is your ultimate goal, and your search for the articles and videos you requested is getting as much in the way of that as your struggle for online privacy.