I misread your message at first, I had thought you were astonished that someone's fallen off the productivity wagon, so to speak, for a few weeks. I've been dealing with similar stuff as the parent poster for probably half of my life, so decades. I feel like an unpatched human being, full of bugs. yes, I talk to a shrink, take the pills, stopped the addicting substance, and still struggle with self-destructive behavior, fleeting relationships, lack of romantic relationships for over 5 years, but other things have improved.