I don't think anyone has those, even the rich.
2) each time you meet someone you don't know if he/she's after your money..
They may never need to work, but their life's work is just coping with that fact (or something)
I'm not gonna say it's ruined my hobbies and forms of recreation as my career progresses but having that range of decisions to make instead of just being able to default to low cost doesn't make them more enjoyable.
the world would be OK, regardless of anyone going missing. Don't think anyone has such importance that they would cause the world to not be OK by dying.
"World" can mean your immediate environment. Plenty of people can claim their death would not be "OK" for those in their immediate environment.
"World" can consist of your society at a regional or national level. Again, plenty of people can claim their death would be harmful at this level. Look at the Huey Long assassination, or the spike in suicide rates after Robin Williams ending himself due to dementia.
"World" can consist of all the people in the world. If Stanislav Petrov died prior to him preventing the end of (most of) the world, this level of the "world" would not be OK. If Gates had died decades ago, millions more each year would be dying of malaria. His death would leave the "world" "not OK."
"The world will always be okay" as a mindset is only true if your idea of the world is the rock itself. I find it hard to care about the rock itself.
IME what matters more than wealth is having health and energy. Exploring ways to reduce your exhaustion might be the best use of your time. You can increase your energy by getting a "win" in some way. That can be as simple as successfully introducing one new good habit in your life.
Being poor does genuinely suck, and a lot of modern society seems to deliberately lean in to that. But I know quite a few poorer folks who still find joy in life, each in their own way. Human beings have always been resilient in difficult circumstances: I don't think we would have lasted through generations of evolution if a difficult life routinely led to despair.
> Now that I'm pretty much poverty-trapped, at least for the next few years, I'm fine with death.
If you're poverty trapped for the next few years, I'll warn you now that death is fairly long term. Longer than a few years for sure.
I really hope you get the break you need, internet friend.
There have been a couple of times when I felt that way in my life, but then I remember this is the only life I will get, and then I'll cease to exist. I was lucky to be born among the dominant species of this planet, so I better enjoy it while it lasts.
Eventually, against my initial expectations, life got gradually better.
I was only afraid of death when life had hope. Now that I'm pretty much poverty-trapped, at least for the next few years, I'm fine with death.
Death is for the miserable people in the world. If you have the means to avoid it, your life is good enough to justify avoiding it. Life is great when you have time and low stress, so there's no reason not to try and preserve it.