I agree with your point here, but your methodology seems very strict. Almost to the point of self-defeat, because turning to a distraction and finding it isn't there isn't improved attention, only distraction with more steps. I do hope you find your balance, and whatever gets you there is your own, but having grown up under the same approach you're describing, I can attest to the likelihood of an eventual collapse.
>having grown up under the same approach you're describing, I can attest to the likelihood of an eventual collapse.
These words are what got me finally to understand why you felt strongly enough to participate in this discussion. Thank you.
The point being, remove all the stuff from your environment that hammers the brain 24/7, become a bit calmer, then use your newly freed minutes for intentional time-bound actions.
The way we all live is not normal to begin with.