>> You're trying too hard to rationalize away personal problems and your inability and/or unwillingness to address them.

I think its you who are trying so hard to rationalize your own personal problems and/or unwillingness to address them. You may need to seek some professional help!

I'm not a kiss ass type and never will be no matter how well you trying to rationalize your thiking. Been a kiss ass is no different from been a slave to your boss or your workplace. If you prefer to kiss ass do so and don't try to impose your way of thinking on others.