I would compare the “oh shit, what does this mean” feeling to how I felt to March 11, 2020, when the NBA announced it was cancelling their season That’s when it became definite to me that the pandemic was real and unavoidable.
In the same way, the future of war for America started to seem unavoidable as one realized the planes were an act of war. Especially when the Pentagon was hit and then later that week when people were getting Anthrax in their mail. That’s something I never hear people talk about, but was just as scary and only added to the chaotic feeling of “wtf is going on?”
Yes. And I still get a mixed feeling of:
1) "I'm glad I don't live in NYC/USA" and
2) "I wish I was there to help people somehow"
The truths of that one are buried under so much official horseshit. Easier to ask now, "who benefited?" and check their subsequent records to see what else they were involved in.