I had bad RSI and lost the ability to work like I used so I adapted, can't force anything. I was homeless and worked at McDonalds and Taco Bell before getting a car and delivering pizza. Now I'm back at a startup and can work again. If I push myself too hard my hands will hurt so I don't. Only advice is fight with everything you have but don't push yourself harder than will allow you to rebuild and recover your health. America sucks. So does most of the world. There is no country to go to and be free in. Good luck!