I think that's the problem I tried to describe: I don't have any.
It seems everyone has goals that they put aside for one reason or another. I achieved the majority of the goals I had, dropped some that made no sense and now there's no path set out anymore. I don't feel I should pursue anything.
Then don’t. I also think it is all meaningless, a blip of order in a system of chaos that “we” exist and “we” are able to think about it.
Play the game, do not play the game, it does not make a difference unless you want to think it makes a difference. I have little kids, and I am not in any pain, so I like playing the game and seeing what I can do to provide for their future security.
Maybe I would not if I was in much worse circumstances, such as super sick or economically disadvantaged.
You can argue those goals are just external influences that got imprinted in you in a period of your life in which you were prone to start dreaming.
Still, why not follow the goals you feel you should pursue?
Do what makes you happy, do what you can look back and say "that was cool", write a book you would read with your life actions.