The "liberation" from self destruction is more of a temporary numbness, a borrowed liberation from tomorrow, that disappears once the hangover starts clearing up. It's a false sense of liberation. Speaking from experience.

I was not implying that that feeling was good or advocating for it. Just that that feeling appears, even if misguided, and we need to understand it to understand self-destruction loops

There better ways to destroy one's ego than destroying the mind and body.