I've been suicidal most of my life, and it was made way worse from 8 years in jail due to mental health problems. I just got out. I was heading for a homeless shelter, but someone took me in. If I can help you in any way, let me know. Even if you just want to talk. I've been through a lot of the same experiences as you. I got tinnitus too from COVID when I was in jail. My email is on my profile. I will reply.