The second trip was 6 grams, ground with orange juice. After ~20 minutes felt nausea but no happiness in this "come up" phase [0]. I tried reading Dune (again) on my phone but the characters would visually "s e p a r a t t e" and stretch out.
The peak [1] was much more sorrowful; I cried a lot. My trip sitter [2] said I vented a lot, almost vindictive in how I stripped away relationships, friendships, and people from my past that, well, I'd never gotten over. To me, it felt like I was shedding these heavy chains I'd been carrying around. I also, at long last, said "bye Felicia" to a an abusive, lontime "best friend" and walked away. Parse your contacts: How many that you never talk to, and have no interaction at all?
Marijuana was exceptional here for giving me a gentle cloud to settle on. In the words of Big Chris: "It's been emotional" [3] Since then mood has been the same as the last trip, all good.
[0]https://wayofleaf.com/psychedelics/what-is-a-mushroom-trip-l....
[1] https://wayofleaf.com/psychedelics/what-is-a-mushroom-trip-l...
[2] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trip_sitter
[3] "Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels" 1:21:54
+10 For including the citations on the various terms.
+100 for taking the time to share this second experience.
FWIW, a friend of mine is a fairly frequent 'traveller' (couple times a year). Every body type is different etc, but his recommendation to me has been: 1. Set and Setting are everything, if you have any doubts it isn't a good time 2. 0.25-0.5g is a micro-dose with no real trip but some potential chill effects. ~1.5-2g is a solid recreational dose. Any more and things can get weird. 3. If things do go sideways, milk can help (no idea of the chemical efficacy of this)
Sounds like it got weird for you, glad there weren't any long term side effects.
With all of that in mind and research indicating that you will continue to have this net benefit for up to 6 months, why try something new vs just take another trip?
Also… the dozens of meds is so demoralizing and exhausting. I hear you loud and clear on that front. Not to mention the years that go by while tweaking them… ugh.