I have also gotten sick on occasion.

Seems like you are a person prone to live in fear. Surely once you recover from your illness, you will continue to live in fear because of climate change, and if that was ever somehow resolved to your satisfaction, you'd find something else to provide your fear fix.

Hopefully your young son will grow above and beyond this negative influence, and maybe even teach you that there is more to life than constant anxiety and anger about the End Times. Good luck.

Fear is normal when is justified! Fear prevents people to get killed by avoiding doing dangerous shit. But feel free to be courageous and go visit someone with COVID and then visit your entire family/friends, prove them all that is all fake and there is nothing to be afraid.