Re:My experience of losing a friend to heroin (2020)
by arp242 on Monday October 25, 2021 @11:53PM
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I am "not a genius, but not dumb either" much like Jack. But for one reason or the other I seem to have an aptitude for this whole programming thing, and technical stuff in general. Is that "talent"? I guess it's not "talent" in the wunderkind sort-of way, but it is "talent" in the sense of "a decent aptitude allowing me to perform better at these kind of tasks than average in the general population".
I was never addicted to drugs, but for the first ~25 years I struggled in life in much the same way. No education, no real job, no real direction, future, or perspective, no real friends, no girlfriend, what's the point? I suppose my situation wasn't quite as hopeless, or maybe I'm just a different person, and it probably also helps that drugs usually just make me feel weird in a bad way and never enjoyed it much.
Plus, I never stopped programming, or lost my interest in it. It just took a long time to scrape together the confidence to actually apply for jobs. For a time I was either jobless and programming stuff at home, or working minimal wage jobs and programming after work. At one place I managed to "hack" the computer used to scan barcodes and during night-shifts (with often hours of nothing to do) I would write some toy programs to pass the time (more fun than smoking weed outside like some of the other people were doing). I sometimes wonder what would have become of me if I hadn't learned programming as a young teenager, or had lost interest somewhere along the way.
Either way, we'll likely never know what "talent" Jack did or did not posses as he never really seems to have developed any due to a combination of his personality, environment, and just "bad luck". Even the most talented and gifted programmers I know don't "just" do it automatically; they still need to apply themselves and develop their talent. For all you know you might have it in you to be a word-class guitar player, actor, soccer star, or some such. But if you've never played guitar, acted, played football, etc. and developed this talent then you'll never know.
I was never addicted to drugs, but for the first ~25 years I struggled in life in much the same way. No education, no real job, no real direction, future, or perspective, no real friends, no girlfriend, what's the point? I suppose my situation wasn't quite as hopeless, or maybe I'm just a different person, and it probably also helps that drugs usually just make me feel weird in a bad way and never enjoyed it much.
Plus, I never stopped programming, or lost my interest in it. It just took a long time to scrape together the confidence to actually apply for jobs. For a time I was either jobless and programming stuff at home, or working minimal wage jobs and programming after work. At one place I managed to "hack" the computer used to scan barcodes and during night-shifts (with often hours of nothing to do) I would write some toy programs to pass the time (more fun than smoking weed outside like some of the other people were doing). I sometimes wonder what would have become of me if I hadn't learned programming as a young teenager, or had lost interest somewhere along the way.
Either way, we'll likely never know what "talent" Jack did or did not posses as he never really seems to have developed any due to a combination of his personality, environment, and just "bad luck". Even the most talented and gifted programmers I know don't "just" do it automatically; they still need to apply themselves and develop their talent. For all you know you might have it in you to be a word-class guitar player, actor, soccer star, or some such. But if you've never played guitar, acted, played football, etc. and developed this talent then you'll never know.