being the type of person that need to focus on one task/life, i completely understand you! when I was commited to music production and paid the bills with it, I couldn't focus in any other thing/job. Now since the pandemics started, I had to focus in programming to pay the bills and had to quit music completely.

My 8 guitars that I can't play say hi.

Hah...well maybe the 9th will be the one!

Seriously though, I do own a few but I only play for fun and don't devote enough time to practicing to get particularly good at it. But I can still hold my own just messing around for fun or sitting around a campfire. Sometimes casual/hobbyist-level can still be rewarding.