Get some help. You'll be heard and possibly understood. You'll realize you're not alone which helps to feel a bit less bad about it. You'll learn to live with the situation (because, in my case, that's the only way out). You'll sure change a little bit too, just like I am changing. You'll make bad choices again too, it happens.

Adaptation is our better weapon, but it takes an awful lot of time... But get some help 'cos, well, it helps. And hopefully, we'll recover at some point, in a not too distant future...