This also makes sense. I did enjoy all the arguments I got into on the SSC discord. It was formative for me even though I found myself often frustrated when the arguments reached an impasse, often in relation to the desires of the interlocutors.

I'm also a programmer and am very habituated in terms of thinking in algorithms, but when I had my "break", I realized that my beliefs were not working on a very deep level, and I needed something a lot stronger/deeper than rationality to push me out of whatever local extremum I was trapped in.