I made it seem probably like I have no paid experience, but in reality my resume is just spotty, partly for the same reason I'm asking the question. I have about 4 years paid work on specifically frontend, and do find it awfully boring these days, then about 2-6 years doing other things like python, php, and sysadmin type work over about 10 years since my first paid developer type position. I've lost a few jobs, usually as a result of finding myself in less than ideal circumstances and burning out like hell. It becomes a self-perpetuating circumstance that's proving to be generally very difficult to buuld a career with. I really enjoy, and am capable at programming. I am a programmer and will always be, but I suppose it's an identity crisis to be faced with no ability to put it to use and find something else.