This is fucking tragic. I'm sorry man. It reminded me of growing up in Vegas, finding the lost places in the desert or the deserted places behind the casinos. I get that. And losing the person I loved. And seeing her when I was tripping. I get that too. But doing that in the middle of a fucking foreign war at the end of the earth, and trying to feel normal about it, that's ...that just seems like it would take an inhuman level of self control.