I has a similar experience, and can also say it had a negative affect on me. Hearing that life isn't fair is very different than actually experiencing it. The hard part for me I think is, as a man, it has been hard to find sympathy or empathy. Which realistically I understand, that in A lot of cases men have the upper hand, but it is an unpleasant feeling when you have been beaten by someone demonstrably under qualified in comparison, and each time they fit a specific demographic inverse to your own.