The standard psychoanalysis for this would go something like: you'd like to "return to the womb" and separate out some functions that women could fulfill (cook, sex for pleasure, reproduction, etc.) into ambient functions of the environment as opposed to attach to individual women.

It's probably more plausible that you could do something to egg precursor cells to make women reproduce by parthenogenesis so she can have an infantile fantasy of endless tea, tribadism, and polite manners.

I'd say this.

My wife teaches people to ride horses for a living, something she could not succeed at if her balance was on the side of chaos over order.

I have known also women who are outright psychotic (e.g. bipolar, schizophrenic, schizotypal) even to the point of "went to prison for attempted homicide" and "spread chaos by charging at you with a knife" and having a mom like that really does do a lot of harm.

You might try joining the Marines, working as a roughneck in oil drilling or some other gender unbalanced career