What better way to open your eyes than be inside the belly of the beast?

People can grow and have regrets.

I used to have this neighbor who worked at Loral. Designing spy sats...

We used to have this "language" whereby I would ask him a question while he washed his car.

If he washed left (wax on) it was 'yes' - if washed right 'wax off' it was 'no'

So I would ask him all sorts of questions about the capabilities of the spy sats loral was building and through that simple interaction, was able to learn a lot about sats...

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I have never uttered this story before.

It sounds like you have grown much and now are one the good guys. Job well done.

Did he tell you anything juicy?

Clever. And I bet you learned a lot more about those than you ever imagined.

People can grow and have regrets but immediately telling everyone else doing the same thing you were just doing to rot in hell is a little much.

THIS! and these regrets eat deep.

I hope you can successfully grapple with those, my friend.