This is the most absurdly ludicrous thing I have ever read, and I am not exaggerating for effect. I honestly cannot tell if this is a bad joke or sarcasm, because I can hardly imagine a human being who could believe such nonsense. If you experience any of this nonsense first hand it is because you believe it to be true and have created a self fulfilling prophecy. You need to change your perspective. Go see a therapist and work out your issues.

I suggest reading some Gabor Mate and work on resolving unresolved childhood trauma (the only thing I imagine to be strong enough to create such self-limiting beliefs - assuming of course your post is not just a failed attempt as sarcasm).