I used to dream vividly at night and while awake I was always the most calm and rational person in the room until a couple of years ago when I ran into financial (and love-related) problems and then struggled for years with extreme anxiety. I lost my capability to dream/remember my dreams.

After having mostly fixed those problems I found that I was still anxious and unwilling to live in the now, always fearing the future or regretting the past. My dreams were nowhere to be found. For the longest time I felt like I was living in a nightmare.

These days, to some degree, I have returned to being somewhat calm and rational. Last week I've been waking up every morning, either in the middle of a vivid dream or at least with some recollection of what my dreams were that night. It's so soothing to have my dreams return. It makes me feel even more calm and rational (my favorite state of mind).

Cognitive therapy for a short while plus meditation helped me, it seems.

Forgive yourself. Love thyself. Take care.