I used to struggle finding the words for it, then I found this thread[1]. Instead of a long diatribe more or less saying the same thing, I think that article sums up 99% of it.

Generally speaking: I just don't have the energy for the amounts of bullshit that comes with being in this career anymore. No job is immune from bullshit, this much is true--but I kind of hate this cop out because it strips agency from people in minimizing the amount of bullshit they are subjected to on a daily basis.

For me, that means to hell with this career. I very much want to do something different, so that's what's going to happen.

[1] https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=25251029

Good luck on whatever voyage and path you end up taking, I genuinely hope you find a spot of zen for you and yours.

EDIT: BY THE WAY--I will probably never stop coding, as there are always opportunities to be efficient in bookkeeping and do some low level automation (in fact I do this already). I've also got a home lab running a few local services and I enjoy tinkering. I'm just not at all interested in writing and maintaining feature/production code for another SaaS platform or "tech company". Not at all. Never again. The idea of even interviewing for one of these jobs has the heart rate ticking up and the jaw to clinch up.