Yeah it's IT rather than being on a desk, maintaining back office systems largely.

I have been working on my skill set, I know C# pretty damn well, I have taught myself aspects of software engineering + computer science I didn't have, etc. etc. - it's just that there are gaps, lots of gaps and more than that, a complete lack of confidence. This stuff grinds you down so much that it becomes very hard to resurface, that's part of the problem.

I am working hard on filling those gaps, but I think it'll probably take a year before I've sorted it. I went for a bunch of interviews at other finance places recently and the gaps were exposed very clearly there, so this is based on evidence.

Anyway, I don't want to talk much more about this unless stuff starts becoming toooo identifiable.

Just grit my teeth time really, but it's hard.