Normally I'd go with the second, but I'm trying to learn physics as a hobby and, you know, technologically save the world with my messiah complex apparently, and I want to keep tabs on things that may be insightful to know about

Just in case you are serious about having a messiah complex, I am prone to having a messiah complex, thanks to schizoaffective disorder. It took me a while to figure out which medications actually help me, without too many unpleasant side effects, but I am very grateful to have discovered the cocktail that works for me now.

i'm glad to hear you've found something that helps you. I was joking about the messiah complex, though it is something my therapist has made the occasional joke about too when i get over-ambitious about things i wanna do (he did specify i don't seem to actually have it, though - just good old-fashioned depression).

> just good old-fashioned depression

So you're normal (half joking). Humor is a good medication for depression, and at least you can joke about it.