"The medication and the therapy I got for my bipolar condition ended my suicidal ideation. If ever the thought occurs to kill myself - and it sometimes does- I dismiss it immediately. Life has too much to offer to spend any time wasted in thoughts of death by my own hand. Life is too short to contemplate long term solutions of nothingness."

That's the last paragraph of a Psychology Today article by a guy who attempted suicide and was consumed with suicidal thoughts for years afterwards:

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-bipolar-coaster/2010...

Please take it to heart.