They aren't looking for an absolute rockstar who believes their experience puts them in a level above all other engineers, or someone who believes they are too good to go through the process everyone else went through.
They want someone who won't spread toxicity through the small team, and your numerous accolades does nothing to convey that. However, the way you've conducted yourself so far speaks volumes.
I don't do self-promotion well. I just state the facts. Apparently, that's enough to "have an attitude."
I spent most of my career at a marquée corporation; surrounded by the finest engineers and scientists in the world, where I was NOWHERE NEAR the top of the heap, and never pretended to be so.
The simple fact that stating that I have a PROVABLE PORTFOLIO means that I "have an attitude" is a sign of how sick the industry is.
BTW: That portfolio is full of errors and mistakes I've made, as well as successes. I'd never dream of getting any work by deception. I want folks to know what they are getting; warts and all.
I know damn well that I'm not a "rockstar." I was a hiring manager for years. This is not a Dunning-Kruger binge. I'm quite aware of where I fit in the food chain.
And I guess that it's obvious. I'm done looking. I wouldn't post stuff like this if I were. Sooner or later, I'll probably be looking to hire other folks. I'm a really, really good manager. You should see some of the testimonials on my LI profile. One of my "golden rules," has always been to treat others as I would want to be treated; regardless of how I am actually treated. Being a working engineer during my entire management career helped me to have a lot of empathy (and hard to BS). I was also privileged to manage a really high-functioning team of top-shelf developers. They knew more than me; and that was great.
If things don't work out...well, I can wash dishes as well as the next guy. I don't really have as much ego tied up in this stuff as it seems. I just love tech.
I was interviewed a while back for a marquée corporation. Great outfit. Would definitely be a place that I'd like to work. I'd even have moved for it, and would have been happy to put aside my ONVIF work to work with them.
They had an HR "triage" person reach out to me to make sure that I was good for the next stage.
I sent them a link to my SO Story, along with links to specific repos that addressed the needs of the position (I have repos for multiple shipping apps on the App Store, and source for LOTS of stuff that is currently in use as industrial-strength infrastructure).
The triage guy didn't bother forwarding it, and the secondary interview was...you guessed it...a fifty-line binary tree test.
To add insult to injury, it was given in Swift, when the position was for ObjC, and the tester dinged me for not writing inscrutable, obfuscated garbage code using the nil-coalescing operator (think ternary, but worse). I deliberately try to avoid using it in a "chained" fashion, as it leaves unreadable code.
Basically, I was rejected for an ObjC job, because I didn't write ugly Swift.
All my work in open source has taught me to write extremely readable, well-documented code that can be taken over by folks; often with fewer chops than mine. I know that the outfit I was applying for takes that stuff seriously. They are a model that I like to follow.
2) You're right. I have figured out that "used to be a manager" is poison. I've had a number of times where I've made it to the techs I'd work with, and the process has stopped there. I assume that they are afraid I'd be hard to work with.
You don't last long at a Japanese company unless you are REAL GOOD at being a cog. I was excellent at it. I lasted for a long time.
I was actually looking at startups. I'd be almost ideal for a startup. I was willing to work cheap, and take risks, as my retirement was set, and I live extremely humbly. I have a huge array of skills and experience. I have management experience. I clean up real good and can get Japanese managers to commit (they make American VCs look like Santa Claus).
Ah...well...water under the bridge. More will be revealed...