whether you made it or not depends on what you want. you clearly have the capacity go whatever direction you prefer, so don't judge yourself based on other people's opinions. obviously you can't have everything at the same time, but the question is exactly this one: if you had to choose, would you go in the same direction again? yeah, there's always the "what if I had done this...", but if you are satisfied with what you are doing now, then you are making it. maybe tomorrow you change your mind, but hey, that will be another day.