I’m in a very similar situation with the OP-Z! No musical background, bought it because I was curious about the UI. I find myself getting sucked into it for hours at a time, even though I haven’t yet made a beat I’d be comfortable sharing.
My original plan was to sell the OP-Z after a few months, but now I think I will hold onto this thing until it dies.
> No musical background, bought it because I was curious about the UI. I find myself getting sucked into it for hours at a time, even though I haven’t yet made a beat I’d be comfortable sharing.
Study music theory! Seriously, it's more of a science than an art. The art comes in how you apply it. I made a huge jump from making little 10-second loops to making enjoyable music after I learned a little theory. It is well worth your time.
...but I can never bring myself to leave it. I don't use it a ton, but when I do I get sucked into it for 4+ hours. I especially love to use it on long international flights (I read someplace this was one of the design goals), and my tape tracks are crammed with loops from the last 5 years - it's unexpectedly nostalgic to listen back.
I originally bought it because of that strange impulse you mentioned, at a time when I really shouldn't have been buying expensive synth-toys - but I'm so, so glad that I did. Totally encourage you to pick one up if you ever get the opportunity!