I’ll be he counterbalance and say quit ... if it’s been 10 years since you’ve started trying I’d imagine it’s not practicalities getting in your way ... whatever way you chose to learn should have gotten you to level 1 by now and if it hasn’t its worth reassessing whether it’s really you in the first place. Anyone can learn to code; it’s not a capacity thing but it takes work and if you don’t really care, wanting to be “the guy that can code” won’t get you there.