I have been in long-term emotional pain, and likely will be for the rest of my life. Yes, I do not want to cause others to feel pain - but why should I continue to deal with crushing pain just to spare others from pain that will likely pass?
>Do you want people who don't know you and know hardly anything about your pain to engage in discussion with you?
I don't see how that makes a difference.
When I do speak to people in my life, it's not like it's helpful in any way. They just seem worried and concerned. That's touching, sure, but does not actually help.
If anything, people often say to speak to a therapist - someone who doesn't know you.
>I don't want you or anyone to commit suicide
Why?
A good therapist probably exists. You should figure out how to find her or him.
[EDIT] Admittedly, the untied shoe and the steak knife are trivial problems that disappear once corrected, while the suffering that leads to ideas of suicide isn't, but it's the same internal motivation for me in all three cases. I'll also add that although this is the main reason I don't want people to commit suicide, there are others. One of these is that people who seriously consider suicide are different thinkers than I am, and a diversity of minds is useful and interesting.
Suicide causes long-term emotional pain for your family and friends.
>this is a throwaway account so that I can talk openly about being depressed and suicidal
Do you want people who don't know you and know hardly anything about your pain to engage in discussion with you? I will, but full disclosure -- it's because I don't want you or anyone to commit suicide.