Add a decade, subtract the apnea, but otherwise: Welcome to my world, or an exact replica thereof.

The thing is, I can focus on stuff I really want to do, but I can't fake the want. So - my personal pet projects are doing fine. As for work, my life has improved tremendously since I sort of gave up careerwise. These days I drive a bus and actually have some mental energy left over for my sparetime. No medication. I don't like the idea.