Probably one of my worst years yet. Struggling with my Masters final year workload. Long term relationship ended due to becoming long distance. Lost almost all my self discipline. Waste so much time on youtube or other pointless browsing, even though I know I'm bored doing so. Stopped going to the gym. Let social anxiety increase to the point where I stopped hanging out with uni friends, only hang out with housemates now. Failed to get interviews or pass interviews of all my target companies for graduation, even though I felt I performed rather well in them or have a pretty strong resume. Also struggle to sleep before 4am. Gained 5kg this year and I'm almost certain I'm pre-diabetic due to a sugar addiction.

I'm 95% sure I'm not depressed, because I still feel positive and want to improve, but I'm just don't and let myself get worse.

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