>> But my insecurities force me to constantly try and productize my learning.

I wouldn't frame the impulse to "productize" something necessarily as buckling to an insecurity.

Deep learning (no pun) is so often the result of recontextualising what you've studied into some new form of your own making. If that's a "product" of sorts, then all the better for advancing your other goal of "building an incredible company."