The article alleged they weren't going to work with her if they deemed her at risk of trying to take her life again. I think it's anyone's guess what is going on in her mind, given that expressing any doubt her is worth living would result in future refusals to help (such as in the event her body rejects this face).

As someone who sincerely has every intention of "being strong", my current behavior is indistinguishable from the times I was pretending to be strong due to the huge cost of behaving otherwise.

I am what I can do: programming, music and road-racing. If I had lost even just my sight in the same manner as this young woman, let alone at the same age ... my only remaining desire would be to try again and aim better.